Into the night
Kristian
hi guys. i think it’s super crass that you make your samples available for free for commercial use after feedback. i’ve been playing with the idea of releasing my remix of this acapella on spotify and the usual streaming services. but i currently only have 120 listeners on spotify, like snowflake has about. i had 2000 listeners two months ago. but that only came after i put my spotify account in a promotion for bought clicks from an american company that seems to work with asian clickfarms. and yesterday i saw a picture from asia of a young woman sitting in a poor room in front of a wooden construct with about 50 cell phones on it. so it’s a picture from a clickfarm. well, since then i’m not so convinced of this music industry anymore. and that’s why f@ck spotify.
that this song of yours is about a werewolf, i only found out this morning at 7 central european time. although i understand english pretty well, i didn’t listen to the lyrics yesterday, but concentrated on the sound. but i was also drunk from 2 bottles of wine and was on benzodiazepine withdrawal at the same time because i forgot to take my daily pills.
what was i getting at? tonight i dreamt of vampires. and as everyone knows, they are the arch-enemies of werewolves. anyway, i used to have nightmares about vampires a lot. and today i had them again after a long time.
apparently the passage with silver bullet has screwed itself subconsciously into my brain and reminded me of old times.
be that as it may. really, really cool song that you make there.
due to snowflake’s upload restrictions, my remix will be released at 1am california time, which is an hour before my 11am central european time therapy session with my psychologist dr bliss.:)) and at 12 noon central european time, i’ll mix two bottles of wine with neuroleptics and benzodiazepines again and beam myself away star trek style.
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today is october 19, 2022. a wednesday. ccmixter release day. i did the song yesterday, in a pitiful state. i didn’t take my benzodiazepine and was even more on it than i already was due to the two bottles of wine with cola. when you take benzodiazepines your body gets addicted to it. and once you don’t take it regularly you notice the consequences very quickly. the withdrawal from benzos reminds me of psychotic states.
long story short. i made this remix yesterday in the state described above in one hour. and this morning i listen to it, and was not satisfied at first. but then i briefly listened to speck’s new remix.
and now my remix sounds like a blockbuster.
what else can i say? i don’t know. maybe i’ll think of more later.
…
the same day a little later. it’s lunchtime and i’m drinking my second glass of red wine with cola and listening to my remix. the neuroleptics and the benzodiazepines are doing the rest. i’m smoking my 20th cigarette right now and i have 20 more to go during the day.
i was in therapy. i talked to dr bliss about kanye west and his statements about the jewish media persecuting him and the jews wanting to kill him. i told her this ridiculous paranoia is indicative of a manic psychotic episode. she just said she was sorry he couldn’t get help because he was surrounded by sycophants. she didn’t say it that way but still, i took it that way. then i told her about my buddy who sent me this video and said: cool kanye west speaks the truth about the zionists. and he’s not afraid. i said dr bliss they’re out of their minds. yeezus is suffering from a bipolar disorder that’s slowly turning psychotic and the people who celebrate him and trump and putin and talk about a zionist world conspiracy are suffering from a paranoid personality disorder. the same as with corona back then. nothing has changed. and she said that in 80% of cases all psychotics have a persecutory delusion that has to do with some organizations that act all-knowing, all-powerful and in the background.
and i told her the anecdote of the head doctor of the psychiatric clinic in offenbach who, as a substitute, once said to me that i would have two options in the middle ages:
first, you would either have gone into the woods to die, or you would have been seen as a saint, shaman, visionary of god, etc. by your fellow men.
well, that’s how our therapy session went for half an hour which the german government reimbursed her with 120 dollars. thanks to my health insurance credit card.
however, there is one image i can’t get out of my head. we are standing and i walk to the door and she tries to engage me in another conversation away from therapy, what did she say, lately my neck hurts so much and i have…. and while she’s talking I’m already out the door and with a smile on my lips I say goodbye and walk out through the hall.
sad somehow but reality.
on the way home through the north end i still heard her voice in my head:
you look like a pusher who wants to make me believe in his religion. and oh yeah, you have no insight into illness.
anyway, now dr bliss sits in her cozy little room and listens to the howls of depressives, the superhero stories of bipolars in their manic phases, or even just the unsatisfied chatter of neglected and abandoned spouses.
and i sit here and listen to this banger to which i have written this text.
that this song of yours is about a werewolf, i only found out this morning at 7 central european time. although i understand english pretty well, i didn’t listen to the lyrics yesterday, but concentrated on the sound. but i was also drunk from 2 bottles of wine and was on benzodiazepine withdrawal at the same time because i forgot to take my daily pills.
what was i getting at? tonight i dreamt of vampires. and as everyone knows, they are the arch-enemies of werewolves. anyway, i used to have nightmares about vampires a lot. and today i had them again after a long time.
apparently the passage with silver bullet has screwed itself subconsciously into my brain and reminded me of old times.
be that as it may. really, really cool song that you make there.
due to snowflake’s upload restrictions, my remix will be released at 1am california time, which is an hour before my 11am central european time therapy session with my psychologist dr bliss.:)) and at 12 noon central european time, i’ll mix two bottles of wine with neuroleptics and benzodiazepines again and beam myself away star trek style.
…
today is october 19, 2022. a wednesday. ccmixter release day. i did the song yesterday, in a pitiful state. i didn’t take my benzodiazepine and was even more on it than i already was due to the two bottles of wine with cola. when you take benzodiazepines your body gets addicted to it. and once you don’t take it regularly you notice the consequences very quickly. the withdrawal from benzos reminds me of psychotic states.
long story short. i made this remix yesterday in the state described above in one hour. and this morning i listen to it, and was not satisfied at first. but then i briefly listened to speck’s new remix.
and now my remix sounds like a blockbuster.
what else can i say? i don’t know. maybe i’ll think of more later.
…
the same day a little later. it’s lunchtime and i’m drinking my second glass of red wine with cola and listening to my remix. the neuroleptics and the benzodiazepines are doing the rest. i’m smoking my 20th cigarette right now and i have 20 more to go during the day.
i was in therapy. i talked to dr bliss about kanye west and his statements about the jewish media persecuting him and the jews wanting to kill him. i told her this ridiculous paranoia is indicative of a manic psychotic episode. she just said she was sorry he couldn’t get help because he was surrounded by sycophants. she didn’t say it that way but still, i took it that way. then i told her about my buddy who sent me this video and said: cool kanye west speaks the truth about the zionists. and he’s not afraid. i said dr bliss they’re out of their minds. yeezus is suffering from a bipolar disorder that’s slowly turning psychotic and the people who celebrate him and trump and putin and talk about a zionist world conspiracy are suffering from a paranoid personality disorder. the same as with corona back then. nothing has changed. and she said that in 80% of cases all psychotics have a persecutory delusion that has to do with some organizations that act all-knowing, all-powerful and in the background.
and i told her the anecdote of the head doctor of the psychiatric clinic in offenbach who, as a substitute, once said to me that i would have two options in the middle ages:
first, you would either have gone into the woods to die, or you would have been seen as a saint, shaman, visionary of god, etc. by your fellow men.
well, that’s how our therapy session went for half an hour which the german government reimbursed her with 120 dollars. thanks to my health insurance credit card.
however, there is one image i can’t get out of my head. we are standing and i walk to the door and she tries to engage me in another conversation away from therapy, what did she say, lately my neck hurts so much and i have…. and while she’s talking I’m already out the door and with a smile on my lips I say goodbye and walk out through the hall.
sad somehow but reality.
on the way home through the north end i still heard her voice in my head:
you look like a pusher who wants to make me believe in his religion. and oh yeah, you have no insight into illness.
anyway, now dr bliss sits in her cozy little room and listens to the howls of depressives, the superhero stories of bipolars in their manic phases, or even just the unsatisfied chatter of neglected and abandoned spouses.
and i sit here and listen to this banger to which i have written this text.