miracles
Kristian
i´ll quote snowflake:
There is too much talking
And there is nothing left to say
…
today is still wednesday. i got home an hour ago. i just watched half an hour of the godfather 2 on amazon prime the streaming service for hetero s3xual white boomers and those who want to be. it’s already a difference to the woken netflix that i cancelled. drank a bottle of red wine with lorazepam and neuroleptics and ate a bag of chili rippled chips. what my supermarket norma jean offers in sweets.
anyway, the motherly caring nature of 35 year old pregnant dr bliss has an impact on me. almost the same as snowflake’s singing. if not the same. i asked her if she listened to the remix. the one i’m writing this for now.
and she said:
it’s very spaced out. and so english.
I think she meant to say american.
and i thought i had delivered an acoustic masterpiece. but when she says it, it’s probably spaced out and snowflake sings very american and very worthy of a magician.
hence probably the impression of eva katrin.
…
i slept for five and a half hours. today is wednesday, december 14, 2022. i’m so chilled now by this masterpiece i did last night. and now i’m afraid i’m too chilled for my lying hour with dr bliss. after all, i have to turn in a nervous wreck. because the state keeps its hands off me and only transfers me 1200 dollars in pocket money for rent and pocket money and wine and cigarettes. so in any case, i have to be a nervous wreck with my various therapists so that the state will leave me alone. after all, i can’t b3at up the officials of the city of offenbach so that they will leave me alone, just like i b3at up the drug dealer henchmen of the criminal police in frankfurt and offenbach with my schwarzenegger ffmi of 28 and various flight inserts so that they will finally stop bothering me because of my father, the croatian mafiosi.:)
anyway, now i’m afraid that in my chilled out state i’m like old people in need of care who can do everything all of a sudden whenever the inspector of the care center comes because they make an effort and so the relatives get less care money. and later when the inspector is gone, the old people are bedridden again.
i just saw a photo of a singer in the news smiling thoughtfully and raising three fingers.
what do i read in this trivial photo that has nothing at all to do with me?
i see a reader of my writing who is just wondering:
he has three therapists, so studied mind readers…and no one says anything about his red wine excesses that make him write this stuff on ccmixter and jamendo. when he’s apparently gone crazy again?
no i may reassure you dear readers. what you don’t know doesn’t make you hot.
by the way, ann katrin the psychiatrist takes a highly complex blood picture from my veins every three months. and all she says is:
you are in perfect health.
and i always say: if it’s the head that’s not right, the body has to work.
and then we laugh neatly:)
be that as it may. in two hours i’ll be sitting with my dr bliss, who is always in a bad mood because of her pregnancy and her belly, and i’ll lie my way through the hour.
…
20 minutes to go until wednesday central european time.
since i’ve been using this piano vst i’ve been searching for the perfect sound. as always with a new toy. and i now think i’ve found it. this is also helped by one of my favorite acapellas if not my favorite by snowflake. my online key finder said that the acapella is in a minor. the equivalent is c major. so the f major piano playing could stay. by the way i noticed that d minor fits for a lot of acapellas. and for almost all acapellas by snowflake.
be that as it may.
earlier, a remix of mine was moderated, because of racist outbursts on my part in the song description. can be. what do i know what i write, when i’m drunk and under the influence of medication.
anyway, jamendo and tiktok have never complained. can also be that they just wanted to look at ccmixter, to what extent i’m really psychotic, because i mentioned this morning.
dear ccmixter admins i am very psychotic. you can hear that in my remixes.
music has an influence on people. so it can’t prevent psychosis. but it can strengthen or dampen a mood. and snowflake’s singing always has a calming effect on me.
and as always i upload my masterpieces with a bad conscience, because maybe an admin of ccmixter is worried about the 10 megabyte storage space and i might steal the well deserved storage space of an upcoming artist on the servers of ccmixter. but so far nothing came.
be that as it may. i am not my music, but you can definitely draw conclusions about my current mood through my music.
and in the end remains jamendo.:)
There is too much talking
And there is nothing left to say
…
today is still wednesday. i got home an hour ago. i just watched half an hour of the godfather 2 on amazon prime the streaming service for hetero s3xual white boomers and those who want to be. it’s already a difference to the woken netflix that i cancelled. drank a bottle of red wine with lorazepam and neuroleptics and ate a bag of chili rippled chips. what my supermarket norma jean offers in sweets.
anyway, the motherly caring nature of 35 year old pregnant dr bliss has an impact on me. almost the same as snowflake’s singing. if not the same. i asked her if she listened to the remix. the one i’m writing this for now.
and she said:
it’s very spaced out. and so english.
I think she meant to say american.
and i thought i had delivered an acoustic masterpiece. but when she says it, it’s probably spaced out and snowflake sings very american and very worthy of a magician.
hence probably the impression of eva katrin.
…
i slept for five and a half hours. today is wednesday, december 14, 2022. i’m so chilled now by this masterpiece i did last night. and now i’m afraid i’m too chilled for my lying hour with dr bliss. after all, i have to turn in a nervous wreck. because the state keeps its hands off me and only transfers me 1200 dollars in pocket money for rent and pocket money and wine and cigarettes. so in any case, i have to be a nervous wreck with my various therapists so that the state will leave me alone. after all, i can’t b3at up the officials of the city of offenbach so that they will leave me alone, just like i b3at up the drug dealer henchmen of the criminal police in frankfurt and offenbach with my schwarzenegger ffmi of 28 and various flight inserts so that they will finally stop bothering me because of my father, the croatian mafiosi.:)
anyway, now i’m afraid that in my chilled out state i’m like old people in need of care who can do everything all of a sudden whenever the inspector of the care center comes because they make an effort and so the relatives get less care money. and later when the inspector is gone, the old people are bedridden again.
i just saw a photo of a singer in the news smiling thoughtfully and raising three fingers.
what do i read in this trivial photo that has nothing at all to do with me?
i see a reader of my writing who is just wondering:
he has three therapists, so studied mind readers…and no one says anything about his red wine excesses that make him write this stuff on ccmixter and jamendo. when he’s apparently gone crazy again?
no i may reassure you dear readers. what you don’t know doesn’t make you hot.
by the way, ann katrin the psychiatrist takes a highly complex blood picture from my veins every three months. and all she says is:
you are in perfect health.
and i always say: if it’s the head that’s not right, the body has to work.
and then we laugh neatly:)
be that as it may. in two hours i’ll be sitting with my dr bliss, who is always in a bad mood because of her pregnancy and her belly, and i’ll lie my way through the hour.
…
20 minutes to go until wednesday central european time.
since i’ve been using this piano vst i’ve been searching for the perfect sound. as always with a new toy. and i now think i’ve found it. this is also helped by one of my favorite acapellas if not my favorite by snowflake. my online key finder said that the acapella is in a minor. the equivalent is c major. so the f major piano playing could stay. by the way i noticed that d minor fits for a lot of acapellas. and for almost all acapellas by snowflake.
be that as it may.
earlier, a remix of mine was moderated, because of racist outbursts on my part in the song description. can be. what do i know what i write, when i’m drunk and under the influence of medication.
anyway, jamendo and tiktok have never complained. can also be that they just wanted to look at ccmixter, to what extent i’m really psychotic, because i mentioned this morning.
dear ccmixter admins i am very psychotic. you can hear that in my remixes.
music has an influence on people. so it can’t prevent psychosis. but it can strengthen or dampen a mood. and snowflake’s singing always has a calming effect on me.
and as always i upload my masterpieces with a bad conscience, because maybe an admin of ccmixter is worried about the 10 megabyte storage space and i might steal the well deserved storage space of an upcoming artist on the servers of ccmixter. but so far nothing came.
be that as it may. i am not my music, but you can definitely draw conclusions about my current mood through my music.
and in the end remains jamendo.:)